Nervous Wreck

I dropped the children off early this morning at the vet. Nora-Grace and Tabitha are having their little operations. I'm a nervous wreck. I feel kind of guilty that I am taking away the ability for my cats to reproduce. I know it will make them more comfortable by taking the estrus away and it will make me happier too, but do I really have the right?

I know. I'm insane. However, it's how I feel in the back of my mind.

The other thing that has me nervous is Tabitha has a heart murmur. I was told by the doctor she could die during the procedure. The reason being the anesthesia can cause the hear muscle to contract and lock up. The doctor asked if I still wanted to go through with the operation.

What was I supposed to say? I decided to go through with it because I can't have her running around howling all day while in estrus and peeing on my bed and sofa.

They both have to stay over night at the vet and I can pick them up tomorrow. They have never been out of the house over night before. I don't think I will be able to sleep well. Thank goddess it's Sci-Fi night with Betsy. I can drink plenty of wine to compensate.